kjp
My (repeated) complete inability to be anything other than casual acquaintances with the opposite of sex is so ridiculously frustrating it's not funny.
I'm such a silly sod about it. Just stupid irrational counterproductive thoughts stuff me every time.
It's annoying because I'm built to be with people. Just too have a few really good relationships.
Sigh.
ps:
I was considering other titles for this post that included the stronger words fuck or shithead. But I didn't want you out there in realworld land to get the wrong impression of my current mood. I'm fine - really. And no, that's no sarcasm or irony or whatever fancy schmancy words literary people like to use.
Anyhow. bed now. RDO tomorrow. woo hoo!...
You're making a great start by having acquaitances rather than just sitting around. At some stage it will click with someone at a time that will almost certainly be outside your control. In the meantime sugggest you make a point of mixing with different people and groups.
ummmmmmmmm, sure, i agree, but what was going on wasn't really in my original post.
ie: there's more to it...
but I think a) I've got it figured and b) am ok now.